Emotional - Or Something

Jason worked late last night so this morning he slept in, so I did too. Which really isn't abnormal. I like sleeping in and the girls are really good to let me most days. But today, I was in a bad mood when I got up. After Jason left I got to work cleaning. Sometimes cleaning helps me get my grove back. I picked up the house, worked on laundry, did the dishes, vacuumed, swept and mopped...all the fun stuff. I gave the girls a bath, but my bad mood was getting worse and I just kept yelling at them for everything. Tessa splashed. Jordyn took Tessa's toy. Jordyn splashed. Tessa's toy got thrown out so Jordyn got out to get it. I was mad, and acting like a fool. Do you ever have those moments where you're yelling at your kids and the entire time you're thinking, "Stop it you crazy mother. You're acting like an idiot."???

I sent my sister a text to see if she wanted to do something. We decided on lunch, but because we're on the "Dave Ramsey Plan" we don't have money to go out to lunch so I got my birthday money out. Jordyn picked Los Hermanos because she wanted a free "special drink" and we have shirts. On the way to be seated I tripped on a rug. We sat down and ordered a drink for Jordyn and Tessa to share and a Diet Coke for me. (Diet Coke makes me feel better - most of the time.) When the Waiter came back to take our orders I wanted something off the lunch menu, but he said that you can't order from the lunch menu to get the free drink, so I had to cancel the drink. (I didn't have $12.00+ to get something off the dinner menu.) I felt so bad. Jordyn was crying and crying. Then the pregnant mother, who was in a terrible mood already, started crying and crying too. I just hate when I can't give the girls what they want. I hate when they cry about things, especially when I can tell it's a "real" cry. Not one of those "I want that and I'm going to throw a huge fit until you give it to me" cries. ((Around our house those kind of cries don't get you anything except for a trip to timeout.))

This baby is making me emotional - or something. I'm tired. I have very short patience. I get annoyed, at little things...like toothpaste in the sink or sippy cups on the floor. I want to be a good mom. I want my girls to have fun, make fun memories, and be happy. I want them to learn about being kind to others and working hard, not complaining and sharing. But really, how can they....if the example they see in me doesn't do any of those things some days???

On a happy note - We find out Friday if this little baby is a boy or a girl. SUPER EXCITING! My vote? Girl. (Used to be boy, but I changed my mind last week.)

What Our Daddy Doesn't Know

Today Julie and I took the kids up Diamond Fork Canyon to visit our Daddies. It was fun. The weather was perfect. The drive was even fun, except on the way home when we got lost. Jordyn wanted to sleepover. I did too. Too bad it gets so cold at night up there.On the way up we, the moms, talked about how much the kids have been missing the Dads. Jordyn cries every night that Jason isn't home to give her a "zoom" (a special way to lift her up to the top bunk). Tessa wakes up during the night crying asking for him. Heber wants his Daddy to come check on him when he gets home.

We got home around six and I just can't stop thinking about our conversation. I told Julie that sometimes it makes me sad that I spend all day with the girls, taking care of them and everything...but when Jason spends 15 minutes with them they are so happy. Daddies are so important. Especially our Daddy.

I hope our Daddy knows how much we love and appreciate him. He tells the best bedtime stories and sings the best songs. He plays Lego's and little people. He is the best jungle gym. Our Daddy loves us, he takes care of us.

But I really hope our Daddy knows that we need him. He teaches us how to be kind, how to love everyone, how to work hard, and how to have fun. He keeps us safe and makes us feel special and important. We love him, a lot.

Lake Powell Picture Overload - SERIOUSLY

In July we went with the Hunter Family to Lake Powell. This was our first week-long vacation as a family. I was super worried. I have this thing with dirt...I don't like it. But, the girls had so much fun and it was totally worth every dirty minute.
Jason and his brothers and sisters.

There was a slide someone made on Sand Hill. Tessa loved it.

Tessa also loved her Tattoo.

We went to Rainbow Bridge.

Sisters

Seriously a fun time. The sun was hot, the water was cold. The girls still talk about the boat and the sand and the tent and the shells and the bugs. I love seeing how excited the girls get about life.

Jordyn's Birthday Day

I took Jordyn and Tessa to the movies. We saw the new Winnie the Pooh movie. It was so super cute! Jordyn cried the entire time that it was too scary and Tessa pooped. After the movie we went to Costa Vida for dinner and Daddy met us there.

Jordyn is such a character to have around our house. She is always singing, playing new games, and asking to do art projects. Jordyn's favorite phrase right now is "Here's the deal." She says it whenever she wants something. She love chicken nuggets and anything pasta. She doesn't care much for suckers or sour treats. I'm surprised constantly by her imagination. She speaks her own language, literally. She says it's English...but trust me....it's not. She has an amazing memory. I know because she is constantly repeating things she has heard me say....good and bad things. She is a good big sister and is so excited to have a new baby at our house. I'm so blessed to have such a talented, smart little girl teaching me every day to be a little more fun, a little more Christ like, and a little more crazy.

Jordyn's Birthday Party

Holy Cow! I can't believe she is 4. Can you tell that she is thrilled? Poor kid. This was a bad day for the red, itchy hives. She was miserable.

We had her party on Sunday, August 7th. Everyone in the family came...even Aunt Julia (who lives in China) and Josh and Cheryl (who live in Georgia). We are so lucky to have so many awesome family members who love Jordyn, and support us. Jordyn is lucky to have 8 Aunts, 7 Uncles, 4 Grandparents, and 4 Cousins who all live within 20 minutes of her house. Jason made the cupcakes. He stayed up til 3 in the morning working on them. They turned out AWESOME! Jordyn was SpOiLeD! She got way to many gifts and loved all of them, but her favorite is the MagnaDoodle from Grandma Sue Sue and Grandpa Day. The other day she wrote "MOM" and but flowers and hearts all around to surprise me.It turned out to be a great party. Thank you so much to everyone who came. Tessa even had fun, and can NOT stop talking about her "3" birthday....coming December 2011.

Yo Gabba Gabba, Hives, Cookies, Princess Camp & Miss Tessa's Hair

My kids are addicted to TV. Seriously. This has become a blessing and a curse. I love that I have a free babysitter, but I hate that the TV has to be on ALL THE TIME! They fight over which show to watch, who gets to choose, and where they get to sit on the couch. Some TV shows are great. They learn about colors, numbers, animals, sharing, cleaning up, and about a million little songs that they love. (I'm talking about Barney, Mickey Mouse Club House, Dora and Diego, Blue's Clues and Dragon Tales.) But, there is one show that I hate. REALLY! Yo Gabba Gabba. YUCK! Well, they love it. Look at them shaking their little booties.

Jordyn had another run of bad luck in the health department. I have no idea what happened, some internal virus the doctor said. My poor baby was covered in itchy hives from head to toe. This picture hardly shows what it was really like. She was miserable.Tessa is messy. Especially with food. What more can I say?Jordyn went to Princess Camp at Dance Showcase Company. She was so excited. She asked everyday for weeks how many more days. She was sick the day before...again. I was worried she wouldn't be able to go, but she did. She had so much fun. She is our Dancing Queen!

Oh, this kid. Look at that face. "Oh, Mom...put the camera away." You can't see it well, but Tessa has the best little twisty braid thing in her hair. Jordyn cries just looking at a brush. Tessa is tough. She'll sit in a chair and let me pull, yank, and tug her beautiful, thick hair until I think it's perfect. She can be a monster sometimes....WHO AM I KIDDING?!?! She is a little monster most of the time, but I sure love her and she is stinking cute.

Thing 3

Thirteen and a half weeks. Are you ready to hear me cry about it? This pregnancy has been a lot different for me. I've had a major aversion to food. Nothing sounds good. Nothing tastes good. Nothing looks good the second time. Eh! I've been tired and crabby. I get impatient quickly. I want to stay in bed all day and at night I have a hard time sleeping. Jordyn asks me almost every morning if I'm sick. Poor neglected girls.

But, it's all worth it. I love thinking about having a new baby around our house. I imagine how cute Jordyn will be...and how extremely jealous Tessa will be. I think about cute baby toes and fingers, baby smells, and baby smiles. What a blessing!
These are the shirts Jason made. They turned out so cute.